Starting today, I am writing daily affirmations.
It feels a little cryptic to be writing the same sentence 15 times. But it is a small step in making my goals a reality. In order to achieve something, I must believe it. And that is why I’m writing this sentence 15 times a day:
I will celebrate my best self by seeing 135lbs on the scale by December 31st, 2019 (or sooner) – no matter what.
There is a lot that comes up as I’m writing it. My brain started taking out the year 2019 as almost an excuse to push it off to next year. I’d take out “or sooner” to give myself the sense that this was a hopeless pursuit. Subconsciously, my brain is resisting the sentence. My brain doesn’t believe it.
As Sam Brown says in her podcast, you must believe the what before the how. I cannot spend all this time planning “how” and not doing it. I just need to put in the work, believe in my goal, and the “how” will come.
I know I can do this. It’s a lofty goal, but I want to become the best version of who I can be. I know the Universe threw me some “BS” (a term from Jen Sincero, which if you haven’t read her book I highly recommend it – I’m reading it now!). My subconscious belief said OH NO WE’RE MAKING PROGRESS, QUICK SHUT IT DOWN. And the Universe obliged.
I’m proceeding forward. Despite the BS. Because I know how badly I want this. I cannot write if I am not in good health. I cannot enjoy life if I am not in good health. I have this one body to get me through all of this, and I need to be healthier if I hope to experience life fully.
Right now? Reaching my goal weight by December 31st, 2019 seems like an impossibly daunting task. But I know if I keep focusing on what I want, how it will happen will come around.